I really don’t want to be reborn

Chapter 122 Ding Xueqi’s Diary

Ding Xueqi went back to the side room and tidied up the room.

The room was not a mess, but due to her sensitive and low self-esteem, Ding Xueqi always felt that her room was too bad. If Zheng Wan lived in it, would the other party dislike it?

So even though it was very clean and tidy, she wiped it with a rag over and over again and made the bed again and again.

While cleaning up the room, Ding Xueqi suddenly heard what Zheng Wan said outside.

"Grandma, I am Xue Qi's boyfriend."

Hearing this, Ding Xueqi was stunned for a moment, and her mind couldn't help but think of everything that had happened today.

From taking a taxi to flying to the hospital in Xiaojin County, and finally climbing mountains and wading to Qiwo Village, I heard these words from Zheng Wan again.

Suddenly, Ding Xueqi's eyes became a little wet.

in case.

If Zheng Wan was really her boyfriend, maybe it would be fine, right?

Ding Xueqi thought a little pessimistically, but it was just a thought.

Really becoming Zheng Wan's girlfriend?That's so luxurious. Zheng Wan is so good, he must look down on himself.

Just as Ding Xueqi was thinking in confusion, what her grandma said in the living room made Ding Xueqi burst into tears.

What grandma said is true. If you take medicine, this disease will be a bottomless pit. It will cost you 200 yuan every day. If you need surgery, it will cost you 30 to [-] yuan. How can you afford it?

According to grandma, she most likely wants to give up treatment.

However, what should I do if grandma wants to give up treatment?

Brother Zheng Wan, you must convince grandma to treat her.

If grandma does not receive treatment, she will have no relatives in this world.

Ding Xueqi thought in her mind, forcing herself not to listen to the conversation outside, and forcing herself to clean up quickly.

……

Zheng Wan and his grandma were chatting. Relying on Zheng Wan's superb chat skills, it didn't take long for grandma to open up the topic and talk about interesting things about Ding Xueqi's childhood.

After Ding Xueqi cleaned up the room, she quickly put away the dishes and started cooking. Sweat broke out on her forehead as she ran around alone.

After a while, the smoke from the fire rose, and the delicious aroma came from the large pot stove.

Fried bacon with wild vegetables, ghee steamed buns, and a plate of pickled mustard.

This is already the best dish this family can come up with.

The three of them ate in the living room under the light. Although Zheng Wan and grandma talked more, they always avoided the topic of Ding Xueqi's parents, so the meal was quite harmonious.

In addition, Ding Xueqi's cooking skills are really good. The taste is salty, sweet and delicious. Zheng Wan ate three butter buns and still felt that they were not satisfying.

After eating, Ding Xueqi took Zheng Wan to the side room.

The room is about [-] square meters, with a handmade wooden bed covered with shabby but clean bedding. There is also a shabby handmade wooden table beside the bed, with very neat books placed on the table.

"The environment is a bit bad, you, you stay here first." Ding Xueqi said coyly, her head almost buried in the ground.

"It's good. It looks very warm." Zheng Wan said with a smile and sat down on the bed unceremoniously.

The bed is a bit hard, but acceptable.

"Well, you, don't dislike it...I, I'm going to grandma's house." Ding Xueqi said hesitantly, and then returned to the living room nervously.

Not long after, Zheng Wan heard footsteps walking farther and farther from the living room.

I think it was Ding Xueqi and grandma who went out for a walk.

Zheng Wan had nothing to do, sitting on Ding Xueqi's desk and reading her books.

This girl is very serious and meticulous. Each book is filled with dense notes. Her analysis angle and learning method are also very unique. Her learning efficiency is even higher than her own method.

As expected of a 985 top student who came from the mountains, his skills are still very strong.

After flipping through the pages, Zheng Wan suddenly pulled out a diary.

[On January 08, 1, the first semester of my senior year in high school was about to end. My teacher had great expectations for me. She said she hoped that I could get into Qingbei University. Even if I didn’t perform well, I would still get into Fudan and Zhejiang University, so that I could become The glory of Xiaojin County and even the entire Aba Tibetan area.To be honest, it’s still a bit stressful!Xue Qi, come on, come on. 】

[April 08, 4, I did not perform well in the second model exam today. The teacher said that this score is a bit difficult even for Fudan University. I don’t know why. The closer the exam is, the more nervous I become.The teacher called me to the office and gave me a lot of snacks. He also told me to relax and it would be okay even if I failed the exam. 】

Zheng Wan was slightly surprised.

Tsinghua University, Peking University, Zhejiang University and Fudan University.

Does this girl have such excellent grades?

Let alone Qingbei, even Zhejiang University and Fudan University are almost beyond Zheng Wan's reach.

Zheng Wan continued to peek at her diary.

This girl's life seems to be very monotonous, with few friends. Apart from studying, the most she does is eat with her parents and play games with her younger brother on Sundays.

[May 08, 5, tomorrow is Sunday. My parents said they are going home to see grandma. They are so happy.I like to go back to my hometown the most. Although the road is very steep and difficult, staying in my hometown with mountains and rivers feels like all the pressure can be thrown away]

[Today, Sunday, May 08, 5, my parents took my brother and I from Dujiangyan back to our hometown of Qiwo Village. My father took the three of us on a motorcycle for a long way, and we didn’t get home until six o’clock in the evening. 】

[Dad looks so tired. He is sleeping on the recliner. Grandma is still weaving bamboo baskets to sell for money. Mom is cooking. I am holding my brother and watching the sunset.Today’s sunset is so beautiful. I really enjoy this kind of life. I wonder if Tsinghua University, Peking University and Fudan University have such beautiful sunsets. 】

[He is sleeping on a deck chair in the yard.Mom and grandma are weaving bamboo baskets, and my brother is back. He is sitting in my arms, and the sunset is shining warmly on my body. I feel so enjoying and comfortable. 】

[May 08, 5, I have to go to school again today, Sunday, and the college entrance examination will be in one month.I won’t keep a diary this month, but study hard!Upward every day. 】

So far, the fonts in the diary are still very graceful and spiritual.

But the fonts in the diary at the back suddenly became stiff, as if they had lost their souls.

[On May 08, 5, I picked up my diary again, and unexpectedly my life was completely different.My father, mother, and brother are all gone, the school has collapsed, and my teachers and many classmates are gone too. I was lucky enough to survive, but I feel like there is no light left in my life. 】

[I have suffered from severe anxiety recently. I faint when I think about my parents and brother.I don’t know when I will get out of this feeling. Grandma told me that I still have her, and asked me to look far away and look into the future.In fact, I know it myself, but I really can’t get out. 】

[On May 08, 5, my grandma and I erected a grave for my father, mother, and brother on the mountain today. There were only their clothes in the grave, but no one. 】

[June 08, 6, today is the first day of the college entrance examination, and I performed fairly well.The school said that if you can get into Qingbei University, you will be given a scholarship of 7 yuan; if you can get into Zhejiang University and Fudan University, you will be given a bonus of 20 yuan.With the bonus, grandma's life will be more comfortable. I hope tomorrow will be as smooth as today! 】

[June 08, 6, I’m so useless. Why would I think of my parents during the exam and then faint from tears? I was only halfway through the Chinese language course and didn’t even write an essay. 】

Seeing the helpless words written in the book, Zheng Wan finally understood.

This girl fainted in the middle of the Chinese language test. No wonder she only went to Zhengkai University.